Frustrating last day and a half. Not feeling right about work, not feeling right about family, not feeling right about church. Too anxious about too many things. How come at times everything seems so clear and their is a confidence in what i’m doing and where i’m going and other times I feel like a kite in a windstorm and somewhat cut the string.
What’s different in those times? God thankfully used his staff (gentle proding instead of his rod which hurts) and showed me this morning that I have gotten away from the quality time I was spending with Him and His word in the morning. Coming off of my trip to Dallas for SMBSummit (thanks Arlin and all involved) I had a lot to do and got a little lazy in the mornings. Skipped my regular time reading thinking i’d “do it later.” Big mistake. I’m reading through the bible chronologically (great way to do it) and i’m in a bad period of Israel’s history. It’s great reading and God is teaching me a lot about having a heart fully after Him.
I’m a visual thinker and realize that if my life were a laptop my battery is getting less effective as I get older (actually it’s probobly the same but I’m just becoming wise enough to see the egotism of my younger days.) If I don’t plug in when I wake up I don’t have enough juice to last. I’m finding myself looking for short periods of recharging in Him throughout the day – Arlin’s daily postings, listening to good worship music, catching a good, challenging sermon while I work out. When my battery is low or dead so am I.
The great thing about technology is I have access to outlets everywhere I look. My Zune (yes I have a Zune), my laptop, even my phone has the bible on it. I know God is always with me and prayer is always an options, however at times I need either His word or music. Faith comes from hearing and hearing comes from reading and meditating on His word. You would think at 41 I could have this concept down pat.
God is so cool and His word is full of truth, and adventure and awesome insight. Elisha has been front and center in my reading lately. Now there is a guy plugged in. So plugged in that even after he died he had power. A challenge for anyone looking to find life in the old testament. Find these verses and whet your appetite. When Elisha died and they buried him they were also burying another man. When some thugs came along they panicked and threw the body of the second man in Elisha grave on top of Elisha. When he hit Elisha’s bones he came back to life! Now that’s power! Enough power to do a resurrection after he was dead and buried. I have a long way to go! Looking forward to the trip though.
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